I keep making the wrong decisions!!!!! Hence my life being a mess. One of the doctors I had while back said his patient got better one day because one good thing lead to another and then she began to feel better. I keep making all the wrong decisions and my body seems to follow it. I'm so tired of this! I'm so tired of all the wrong decisions!

I was so angry for a while, but I decided that I can't stand being angry all the time so I went in search not to be angry. That helped me stop being angry especially to my mom before she passed away. But I think I might have turned the anger inside and cause depression to come back into my life. But I guess, I rather be depressed than be angry all the time. Angry caused me great pains, but depression is better than being angry all the time at every body. But I'm hurting myself!

I'm crying right now because I can't take this.