Hello eggplantlife, you sure are hard on yourself. Sounds to me that your depression has a lot to do with loss. Grief is very hard. Anger is good as long as it is not directed at yourself, yes depression is about grief, loss and turned in anger. It is good you have realised this.
Please get the help you need.
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