I've sort of given up getting mental help. I was getting a lot of help in NY. I know I need help. I really was all about getting the help. Then the Medicaid got cut. It was a shocker. Well, when my doc left the hospital I was okay then, but now, I realized I am not okay because after he left, I was in chaos. I had to wait months for a new one but during that time I went out of their system as I moved and thought to go to a place near by. This was the first doctor who I trusted and believed he had my back. Then he left. Then I had to go through the system all over again. It's not easy when you have to go through the system. It's not like having a doctor that you can just set up an appointment. It's a lot of work getting help. A lot of your time. A lot of time that was taken. I'm just in a lot of pain right now.