My father left my mother when I was a baby. She remarried a weak willed man who would do anything for her. She used him to get to where she wanted to be in life and then divorced him on claims he couldn't change. I grew up in a house filled with hostility, I acted out constantly in hopes they would pay attention to me. I had 1 brother and 2 sisters we were all selfish and never got along. I speak to only one sister minimally because she hasn't realized I don't care yet.

At the age of 10 my dad came back into our lives and tried to buy our love. I thought you know that must be love because being punished and scolded all the time wasn't. So, at the age of 12 I moved in with my dad little did I know is my dad only cares about himself and once I lived there spent minimal money on me. He had a girlfriend who I hated because he spent all his time trying to make her happy but neglected me and my half brother. Although my half brother looked up to me I was mean and condescending to him daily. We do not talk as adults, me and my father talk minimally only when I get tired of all the messages and texts do I answer. Same goes for my mother I rather not talk to either of them really.

I feel as if I'm still a child when I think about it I want to grow up and sometimes I reach out to my parents because I want that love and comfort that I've never received. But, it's never there only rejection and excuses I may not talk to them for a year but the conversation with them consists of me not listening while they talk about themselves. I feel I am immature, selfish, negative, condescending, liar, always the good guy, only wrong when it's convenient, freak out when I lose control, use Anybody that gets close to me, and the list goes on I took the quiz and basically maxed it. What's crazy is I feel no remorse for what I've done and only feign guilt when I've been caught.