Feeling vulnerable for lots of reasons, but this week is going to be hard.

I've got an Occupational Health assessment, their job is to get me back to work asap. I've been off two months and if anything I'm worse than when I started sick leave. I've no idea when I'll be better and I've now got some physical health problems that are going to muddy the waters.

I've got a GP appointment, last time he reduced my Cymbalta to 30mg. He did that because he didn't know what else to do, seems I react badly to anti-depressants. I honestly believe that there are no meds out there that are going to work and I'm stuck here for good.

I've got to see my boss because I have reached the next level of the attendance policy, basically I'll be made to feel rubbish because I'm ill and need time off. He will try and pressure me into giving a date when I can return to work.

I feel persecuted, like I'm being hunted down, I have got an idea into my head that even here at PC there are people who think I'm faking. I'm also really hung up because a few people I used to PM have not been round here for a while and I think maybe that is because of me. I'm normally pretty laid back and would be the last person to buy into a conspiracy theory but I'm sure that somehow I'm deliberately being cut off from the support I get here.

Maybe I'm missing something really obvious, perhaps I'm just over reacting because of anxiety, maybe my depression is getting worse because I'm anaemic, taking steroids and the reduced dose of Cymbalta. This week is going to end badly, I can tell.

Thoughts anyone?