well im back. was at my moms for memorial day weekend. i woke up early today and drove back. then i had to work 12-7. it was a hard shift. i worked 4 hours before i got my break. but T was encouraging me during my break and i felt a little better after it. im so worn out. i have to meet T and pdoc tomorrow. we are going to show him the article that SometimesP linked on here about abilify reversing the effects on prolactin.

i was sad i left toby for 2 days but he seems ok. i missed him. i feel much more connected to him than when i first got him. i still think about spook and miss him a lot. its hard not to replay the day they put him to sleep in my head. me hugging him and sobbing while they injected him. his little head falling over and the vet telling me that hes gone. it was soooo sad. i dont like thinking about that moment. i want to think about the good times i had with my babycake. oh i miss him so much.