I just had another absolute revelation about what people REALLY think about this whole stupid thing.

I need a small bish and moan so I hope that I don't upset anyone. I am sorry it's long. I just don't really have anywhere else apprpriate to vent.

I just had a humungous fight with a guy I was friends with from a hiphop board ... some of the best hiphop comes out of texas so ... yea. i check it sometimes.

Anyway he was all about coming down and ripping some stuff up here (he's an emcee). So in the interests of promotion I was like cool dude check out the board that many of my IRL friends spend time on. It's just entertainment / music / dance music / discussion. A lot of people I know are DJs and promotors so i thought it would be useful for him to have contacts.

Anyway we MSN'd for a while and cos well you know how it's safer to talk to people online sometimes ... I did tell him about the depression thing. And he was cool, cos I was I guess noticeably blah at times. He asked so seeing as I figured it was a long time till I'd ever see him IRL it would be safe enough.

Anyway then he turns out to be a real plonker on the message boards, insulting NZ stuff, getting offended at anything he saw as anti american. Now I can have a real potty mouth when I get feisty but ... this was over pretty normal stuff in an un-emotionally charged environment. And then emo at me for not 'sticking up for him'. Ummm hello. You're an adult and you're supposed to be here making contacts ...

Long story sorry but just now he grabbed me on gmail chat (which i shouldn't even be on at work) and ripped into me about how I am a princess and a snob and the fact that i had 'depression' was TOTALLY STUPID and it was pathetic and sad to have something like that ... and i had no excuse.

this is the second time I've been told this recently (my other friend was talking in relation to himself and not wanting to give in to ADs after a marriage breakup where the wife has now gone off men completely).

But sheesh I had not even talked to this guy in a few weeks, not argued, just told him to be a bit nicer to people he expects to help him with beats and gigs one day in another country. He just literally randomly jumped online and went mental. I wonder if he's on crack.

Seriously though, for some people it's clearly just an insult to call someone 'depressed'. I thought he understood and I didn't ever press the issue conversationwise, we haven't talk about it for months. I have had a weird day and that was just the icing on the cake.

The worst thing ... now that I can laugh about it ... is that his hiphop isn't even any good. In fact, his beats are off and his rapping is out of time too.

Anyway I don't know ... things like this just reinforce that it's stupid to tell people. god i wonder how long he thought i was pathetic before he said it today.

guess you learn something new every day ...

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