I have convinced myself to leave many times but I can't figure out as to what makes it hard. Even yesterday when I asked when he'll stop getting angry at me at random moments, he said "go become intact and come to me" (referring to becoming a virgin). The more it happens, the more I feel that something is wrong with me and I just feel like I am damaged. When he once saw a very rowdy-looking guy with his girlfriend, he laughed and said, "I am sure that he has damaged that girl". I don't understand if we're girls or some products bought in the market.