I haven't been on here in a while and thought it would be good to check in. I officially have my psychiatry appointment set up; it's much further in the future than I would like, but it's the only way I can afford it. I'm still on the same meds, and I'm still not so sure how well they're working because I just feel like sitting here, staring at the wall, because I have absolutely no desire, and no motivation, to really do anything. I don't have my appointment until July, and I'm kind of worried that something is going to happen before my appointment.

On a somewhat lighter note, I finally figured out why I have such severe tremors even though I'm not even 20 yet. Last week, I was diagnosed with E.T. or Essential Tremor, which is a movement disorder where, for unknown reasons, faulty signals are sent to your muscles causing them to contract and relax rapidly, causing short, sharp movements, most often in the hands and fingers.

So, yea. Life kind of sucks right now. And to top it all off, ET is extremely uncommon in people under 50, so I get grouped in with the elderly with this.

My insomnia is also acting up, so it's really hard for me to fall asleep, which is why it's almost midnight, when I usually fall asleep around 10. I don't think I'll be able to fall asleep until about 3.

So, other than my entire life being **** right now, I'm doing alright. I've been quite apathetic for the past week or so.

I think I really just need to know that I'm not alone, at least not with some of the things that are going wrong right now.