I know there will be no definitive answer, but I am, literally, at my last straw.
I just put my 2 weeks notice in today for work as I am moving to live with my lover. I have been planning this for 2 months and have been so happy and looking forward to it. I want to spend the rest of my life with her.
Then, today, I call my mom. I ask her how she is, she says "fine" and I tell her "don't lie to me". She has been battling cancer off and on for the past 10 years and right now it is really bad.
For the first time ever, she said to me "I would be better if you were here taking care of me" OMG, I have no idea what I am supposed to do. My 3 other sisters are not helping, in fact they are druggies, alcoholics or have too many kids. Mom is in another state and I feel really guilty because in a way, I want to be how she was to us, not there. She was always working or with guys or something. My step-dad is going downhill and has a hard time doing anything at all.
Have you ever felt like you just don't want to have to make a decision like this because no matter what you do, you are going to hurt SOMEONE?!
I am at a total loss. I have my aunt telling me that I HAVE to go take care of my mom because no one else will, but then I have my lover to think of. Will she wait for me? I don't know how long I am going to be gone. Do I just go to my mom's for a week and see how she is?
I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!