It's okay to feel this way. Change is scarey; is that how you feel? Things are the way they are, and you can accept that...for now. But you must believe in yourself! You really did a great thing talking and being more open with your T today--don't think it was a bad thing. That is something very, very, very hard to do! I am proud that you did that!!! That really is a major accomplishment--think about it. You said yourself it wasn't an easy thing to do, but... Hey, You did it! Congratulations on that!