Thanks for the support.

At the root of it, I'm mostly heartbroken about everything. Regarding both my individual circumstances as well as worldly circumstances.

Individually:

- I have a massive heartbreak from my "ex" that still lingers even now, and whenever I start up a new relationship, it doesn't seem to go anywhere. I miss the feeling of being loved and cared for, and giving that feeling in return- I crave it...as selfish as it sounds, friends and family aren't enough to satisfy my urge for a lover.

- My job situation and source of identity have been fragmented for so long now that I don't know what to think, what to feel, what is right, what is wrong. I only have a clouded sense of intuition that guides me. Even with this teach abroad opportunity coming up, I'm still living in fear of poverty, even when it is kind of absurd to think that way.

- My sleeping disorder continues to suck- that's life

Worldly:

- My problems are insignificant compared to those of the people around me...whom I could have easily been in their shoes. Maybe not insignificant, as I've had my share, but my problems pale compared to an iPhone worker in China, a Holocaust victim, or starving child in Africa. Pollution levels are off the charts- it is the cause of people getting sick and dying, and some of them aren't even aware of it. Where is the hope for those people?

That's why when people view traveling as this exotic affair- I agree to an extent- I love traveling, it really opens the mind, but, there are so many people suffering in each magical place I visit. That's why I can never be conceited about travel, I always go for the bare minimum. How can I travel in "luxury" when there's a hotel worker making my bed to put food on his table?