I think there is sometimes a natural "honeymoon" preriod when a person joins a site/forum. That subsides as one finds their 'niche' and gets comfy here.

I personally have felt recently that I have offended or posted odd thoughts or something, as I have been feeling lonely here. Don't know. Stay or go? Don't know that either. But here I am for now.

We are all dealing with stuff and I think sometimes we can be here easier than other times and breaks are needed. Hard to accept when that happens. Loss is painful. Missing is painful.

I hope you feel better soon!