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Spent last few months working on an art show to raise money for mental health org. Feel totally wasted ,and now all those bad thoughts are here. Cannot stop thinking about how to end this. Feel absolutely at my end.really hurt, even when my friend is thanking me for work i did for him. Wanted to cry in his arms but of course I would never do that. Just gone cold instead. As usual cold in my heart. composed in-front of others . I don't think i have anything left to offer. I'm supposed to be under ACT now, i guess i could call but who want's to listen to a whiny *****. I really am not sure how I can get through. I have so much work I still have to do and no energy unless i ditch my pills then I would. Just want to disappear. sorry for miserable post.