Oh I'm so sorry T cancelled when you are having such a difficult time! How are you dealing with that on top of everything else sunny?
I'm so glad you've found Pema Chodron books at your library! I haven't read that one yet. I am reading "When Things Fall Apart" after listening to some of it on a CD that I got at the library; she reads it herself and I love listening to her too. Here's a site you can order from, if you are interested in more of her books/tapes/CD's:
www.shambhala.com. I found my first books at Amazon.
I hope you are doing okay. Be kind and loving to you.
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