Becca, when you go next just talk about you feel about that last session, including that you were tired and that you didn't want to tell T you were tired. Talk about everything, even your question about being more active.

I am with a new T too. Just had my 4th session. I seem to be stumbling around in there and it feels awkward sometimes. I told her this past session that I realize I am 'flitting about and not landing on much right now but I feel I need to do that'. (I think I am getting comfortable and getting to know her and gaging the trust level I am feeling) She replied "It is okay. We will just see what comes up." I love how accepted and reassed that made me feel. She also allows silences, an important part of therapy, imo. I like that she gives me that time to be able to allow the feelings to be recognized. Last time after a minute or two of silence, she just smiled and I said, "I don't know where to go from here." So she helped by asking me a question.

We are all human, T's too; even they have tired and 'off' days when I'm sure they feel they haven't been fully present for their clients.

It was a good session because it has made you think. You will get more comfortable and hopefully you'll get used to talking about everything and especially how you are feeling at that very moment.

I hope you'll start by talking to her about the things you posted here.

Let us know how it goes.

How have you been feeling physically? Have you had surgeries recently?