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waggiedog · May 27, 2014, 03:08 PM

Hello again and good evening hunny. Yes, it indeed IS quite simply horrible when anybody says to you ''oh you've gained weight'' ~ for us there couldn't be a worse thing said to us. Yes, we are trying to either gain small amounts of weight, or stay stable. I have gained quite a bit since I started taking different Psych meds but it happened over approx. one year, so was sneaking up on me!! However, I knew I had to do something fast to get back to my usual weight (which though original weight, it's low due to severe restricting). I've had all of the ED's over the past 30 years or more. I've been huge (YUK!) and I've been hospitalised due to anorexia/bulimia. I also think it's my advancing age (55) which makes loosing difficult. I've had the most AWFUL AWFUL last year trying to loose the weight that the meds made me gain, going on a cruise didn't help as there was sooooooooooooooo much excellent food I just never damn well stopped eating! I just COULDN'T loose the weight. However, at last I'm slowly loosing BUT I find people keep coming up to me and saying ''oh you look so much better now'' and I say it's because I've gained weight, so their reply is ''great, keep going and gain more weight'' ARHHHHHHHH Could anything be said any worse???? Immeidatly someone says I look better, I go straight into panic and anxiety, promise myself I won't eat for a few days etc etc. This is the way I carry on, up and down on the weighing scales. So YES I DO UNDERSTAND YOU hunny, really I do. I'm almost frightened of myself, my huge appitite which sometimes I can't control. I can't have ice cream in the house because I will want it all day, then go to bed and think I'm good for resisting..................................then I can't get to sleep for thinking of that ice cream downstairs. I then come back downstairs to eat the lot.............. BIG BIG PANIC! Yes I do understand. HUGS.