I don't want a sexual relationship with anyone. I enjoy a few male friends but mostly women friends.

What I want is a close and loving relationship with a woman but not sex.

Is this just an extension of my longing for 'mothering' or is it about my sexuality?

I have never acted on it, but life is short and have been alone for years. Actually, I have never had a real relationship; just a few brief sex-only ones with men. I have a wonderful son from that 'active' period of my life.

Now I want love in my life. Just everyday love, kindness, gentleness, fun, comforting love.

I don't even know what to do, where to start. But I"m tired of hiding away.

Is my wanting a close female relationship realistic? A dream? Somethng else?