The worst part for me was I felt like it was a death sentence. I was misdiagnosed for 12 years and it was a relief at first, but then I realized I had to deal with this the rest of my life. I had already been dealing with OCD for my entire life. I know my next comment might be offensive but this is my decision. The other part is the choice of not having children which just kills me inside. Not only because of the genetic portion, but I can't even take care of myself, so how can I take care of a child. I don't want to explode verbally and scar my child. I've also had to apologize so many times for my actions. I was originally diagnosed as depressed at age 15 and was put on SSRIs which as many of you know causes mania which is what happened to me. I would explode on a daily basis at home and caused so much pain, especially to my sister. My mother and I do not have a close relation due to the past even though I have apologized over and over again. You just can't make everyone understand mental illness.