aw (((HUGS)))) I do hope this is the right decision and that you really are okay... and I certainly hope you are not inadvertantly putting your children at risk...with the hopes of keeping their future lives happier...

Well? I sure wish you would reconsider starting that medicine. That you took the medicine home and do not plan to take it means you have lied to your doctor, which you just found confidence in, is that right?

Ok... well try and hold it together... and come back and post often and tell us how you are ok?