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Originally Posted by Frankbtl
Hi pkey, do you want to talk a bit more about what you see as your "bad side"??
It's just that sometimes people can judge themselves unfairly, or see things in themselves as "bad" when they're much more about insecurities, low self-esteem, feeling depressed, feeling hurt, guilty, frustrated................things that can be worked through, with help if needed.
Then sometimes people can have "unreasonable" expectations of themselves, everyone is going to have flaws, faults, imperfections in all sorts of areas and that's normal.
Some people are naturally going to be a lot better at some things, some people are going to seem really good in some areas, but that doesn't need to mean that there's something wrong with you ("bad" about you) if you "fall down" in those areas. But they can sometimes be worked on as well, if you want to...........
And just like you said there is a good side to you too, and that good side is going to be better than a lot of others in some areas as well.
But here if you want to talk a bit more.................
Alison
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Holy smokes. Alison, something hit me when I read your post. I can't believe it - you challenged me. Both your direct question at the beginning and your use of italics at the end just radiated a strong voice directly into the strongest part of my mind. I guess that I am the one who first used the term "good side," so I will continue - my good side is strong and assertive, and I have learned to see it when I am in certain situations. In these situations, I feel energetic and smart, and I can take on any challenge while taking (and accepting) anything that I don't know as something that I will learn another time. These challenges always academic, and after the experience I have the sweetest taste of actually knowing myself and "feeling myself" radiating from my physical being. I know that my Self exists.
I read an article about how man's greatest fear is success (rather than failure), and I know for sure that it is true. I am afraid of myself at the same time that I love the person inside. I wish I had a strong voice, some kind of mentor or iron-willed friend, so that I could find myself in more situations where "I" can peek through. I am so afraid that most of the time (except in those rare situations when the right people/challenge is present) I appear timid, weak, and shy - I hear my voice falter and feel my hands grow cold. I have so much fear that people I meet for the first time do not have a clue about my inner self. But this is a disservice - I know I am a great person but I'm afraid to bring it to the table.