Wants2Fly, I agree with you; it all "works out" having gotten to where we've gotten and we did what we did and that made us who we were. I was merely thinking about "easier" ways there might have been to get here, now that we have all the experience we do. I'd like to think I wouldn't have gained the 125 pounds :-) now that I know how hard it is to lose it and how slow and insidious it was gaining it, etc. It was often hard to "see"/understand things but now we do and if we could take that understanding back, tell ourselves "Now hold on there!" what points do we see when we would have done that. Yes at the time we had to drink to help the courage but do you now? Perhaps no, so "technically" we might have been braver if we knew back then what we know now :-)

But even more, now I "know" these things, what am I not acting on, having gotten use to the "old" way that doesn't work just because it's habit? What can I see in the past with its resolutions that I should apply now in my present?