I hate emotions! I hate them more than anything in this world.

Grandma went to the hospital Thursday for a passing out episode and severe congestion(bronchitis). Doctors can't find the reason for her passing out. She won't eat much. Personally I think her body starting to go. I mean she is in her 90's...that very well could be it.

Emotionally I have been a wreck tonight. Crying on and off. I HATE crying.

I will talk to T about this Friday. We have been trying to prepare me for this eventuality. I think reality is just setting in now. I'm totally emotionally invested in my grandma...being her primary caretaker for the last 2ish years. That and we were always really close. I don't know what to do...just needed to get this out.