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Old May 28, 2014, 02:53 AM
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Originally Posted by hopeless123 View Post
All I want is to have a normal life. Every time I turn around it's something else. I am struggling with the fact that I haven't talked to my parents in quite sometime (approximately 3 months), but it's do to me being fed up and I have walked away, abruptly. My daughter's birthday just past and not a single phone call to wish her a happy birthday, mother's day past and not a single phone call from them to wish me a happy mother's day. My father, growing up, was an alcoholic and a drug addict, and my mother left me when I was 3 years old and I didn't meet my mother until I was 19 when I had a lump in my breast and needed to know if breast cancer ran on my mother's side. My mother is a no it all type of person and doesn't know her place with our relationship because she says things and makes comments as if she was always there. My father is a controlling person and I've always taken care of him, literally. I raised myself and had a very depressing childhood that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I was beaten and taken advantage of my whole life, only to be abandoned by my father too, who dropped me off with my grandparents. I feel like I am this whinning cry baby at times, but why do I have to go through all this heart ache still at the age of 33. I was still taking care of my dad and at his "beckon call". He didn't have any regards to the fact that I am a mother and a wife and if all my time was spent with him he didn't care and it wasn't like he asked nicely. The last straw was him telling my daughter to shut the bleep up, I made a promise to myself and my daughter that she would never feel unwanted or scared of her grandparents like I was of my father and mother, still am because I don't have the guts to stand up to them, so I walked away. What do I do? Do I write them a letter telling them how I feel and what went wrong, or do I even care because I've enjoyed the peacefulness that I've obtained from not being around them. However, why do I feel so alone? I felt alone when I was around them and I feel alone without them. Why can't they just be parents like they are supposed to?! Please help. There are a million other things going on with me right now that make it extremely hard to even get out of bed, but this is the one that's bothering me most right now.
Hugs. I really do understand. Your story is very similar to mine. I can tell you this it will get better. In your position I wouldn't write a letter because that would open up a line of communication that I wouldn't want. I fell for it, but I'm still keeping my distance from my parents. You aren't alone.

Tig
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