I am so sorry , I know how close and worried you have been about your grandma, I agree with tigergirl, please contact your t, I understand what you are going through, as I have been through similar situations. I hate emotions as well. In fact right now, My mother in law is in the hospital again, the only thing is I am not emotionally invested as you are, but I am dealing with my husbands emotions, she is in failing health she is 87, and doctors have told us to prepare. she is in stage 4 renal failure and congestive heart failure, this time its very bad.
My h was crying all last night, I dont handle emotions very well, I dont know how to comfort very well. I am seeing my t, today.
Please Melissa, contact your t, I need you to keep it together, for you and your grandma, you can do this. pm if you need to, we are here for you. keep us updated ok.