I think my big issue is I am the main breadwinner of my household right now. There is a lot of pressure and stress on my job and everybody is watching everybody to see if they slip. Office drama is terrible. Oddly enough the one person somewhat looking out for me is the head doctor in the office. We have worked together a long time and he knows I am conscientious and that I try to do my best. I keep having a fear that the new management is trying to get rid of me. I ended up in an unintended conflict with one of the new companies workers yesterday. I want to seek mental health services or go to a psychiatric hospital but I fear that the minute I do that I will lose my job. Then I really will be at rock bottom. Then it will be time to put my life back together.