Bwkeys45,

I'll start by saying that you have no reason to apologize or concern yourself if someone feels offended by talking about yourself. It is hard enough for us to understand ourselves, let alone explain in writing our most intimate of intimates.

I agree with the comments above where other posters are saying that you are young and have lots of life ahead of you, and that you should just let life happen. I believe that you shouldn't "Accept that you will be alone", but that you should accept to let life happen to you, whatever that brings.

I know that this thread is about helping you, but I think a personal example may help. In my early teens I wasn't the most exciting guy, a bit geeky, though not that bad looking. I was never very outgoing and was always very shy. This kind of personality meant that I was never successful with girls, even if I could get one interested I was never able to "figure them out". All of my attempts failed because I was never the "guy" in the relationship.
As luck would have it, my best friend and I were pretty much in the same position. Around 15 yo through some odd discussion, we started a sexual relationship. It worked. As a guy, I understood what he wanted and I gave it to him. Eventually we moved on, but I became more confident in my sexuality and what I wanted and expected from life.
As I grew older and moved on to university and work, I found that I was pretty well accepting that each day would finish alone, and that if the universe sent someone, man or woman, to me I would enjoy the company while it lasted. I considered myself a somewhat permanent bisexual bachelor, always wanting, but never expecting.
It wasn't until I was 27 that I met my current wife. I didn't foresee it coming, it just happened. We clicked...and we are still together. Did things change...of course. I've had to hold back my gay side to be honest and loyal, but I have done this willingly. But I truly believe that my life is better with her, where we both support each other and work through our issues and problems.

I guess my point is that maybe you could just accept that whatever happens...happens. And that it shouldn't be you that decides that everyone else is better off without you being involved. If I had continued to follow that lifeline, as in who would want a geeky bisexual guy who isn't confident and wants others to be in control...I'd probably be alone still. But I didn't and I have a wonderful wife and family.

I hope this helps you.