I can understand the wishing you had someone there to take the blades away. I, too, wish I had that. The truth is, we do have that. The person we have who can take those blades away is ourselves. No, it is not the same as having somebody do it for you, but it can be very empowering.
Just hang in there and keep talking with us. Let us know if ther's something we can do for you.
Be Safe,

Celtic