I am tired. I don't know what has come over me today. I just feel like I have to type. The world feels heavy to me today. I am tired. I am tired of hearing people complain. I am tired of hearing advertizing tell us that products can do more than they actually do. I am tired of this feeling of "So what!"

What has happened to humanity? We are screaming at doctors for cures where there are none. Putting up with ancient treatments when we sense that companies are holding back better treatments or cures so profits can be made as long as the illness continues. Brilliant minds are being overlooked because their "proof" hasn't been given a chance to show yet (i.e. must have experience, peer approved materials to back up a theory).I am tired of hearing the professionals state that we have made life better and yet we still serve the 1% elite as we always have. I am tired of wanting something and not knowing what it is I am seeking to find.

I am tired of seeing my paycheck go from my employer to me and back out to utility services, my landlord, pharmacies, and sometimes, a grocery store. I am tired of seeing two people expected to do the work of five for half the pay. I am tired of trying to explain a better way of doing things and just hearing it thrown back in my face with "NO!" "NO!"

I am tired of being told we are never doing enough. We can always do better. When are we doing enough? I am tired of hearing of hatred, conflict, greed, death, and yet nothing but inactive words come out of it. I am tired of fear, hunger, anxiety, stress, frustration, confusion, misinformation, manipulation, dehumanization to technology, loss of individuality, loss of emotional freedoms. I am tired of wires, buttons, batteries, cells, chips, circuits, neurons, iAnythings, screens, viruses, oil, numbers, data, weapons, chemicals.

I am tired of sanitization, sterilization, allergens, pathogens, epidempics, strains, substances, contaminants, germs, public paranoia, media hype, stigma, diets, calories, advice, news, miracles, promises, guarantees, warrantees, deadlines, limits, rules, regulations, violations.

I have no energy left in me. I have no motivation in me. What has happened to community, respect, trust, honesty, expression, and self worth? Does humanity stand a chance of saving ourselves and our planet with any of these traits? I am feeling so tired.