I am asexual. I was raised to be that way and I'd known it for years. Therapy - years of it - could not change it. The years of bad parenting and the dysfunctional gay community did not help. You see yourself as different though, as bisexual.

Here's my suggestion. Set small goals, namely, aim to have many friends. Friends who are mentally healthy. You never know what type of healing will occur long-term. Do healthy things. Have healthy hobbies. Avoid alcohol, cigarettes and drugs. Exercise often. Treat yourself well. Create distance from your family so that your life is, well, healthy. Healing happens. You are young enough for it to happen. Be open to possibilities. Do things that will make those possibilities happen. All the best to you!