Thank you. It's an ongoing process.

Clearly not well today, and trying hard to accept that but went for a coffee with a friend and came home and self harmed just simply because I felt overwhelmed. Ridiculous really.

I have to go out again to meet someone for a drink. I don't want to go but don't know how to say that I can't as I don't know them well..and I'm supposed to be trying to keep going with positive things. I tried to talk to my family but I couldn't and so they of course encouraged me to go because they think (and may be it will be) healthier than sitting feeling crap at home.

Just hate being constantly overwhelmed by everything - but mainly people...who are also the very thing that should and can make me feel better. I hate how complicated it gets! Just feeling angry and I have to go out!