Feel sad and lonely. Was very anxious earlier til I had a good cry. My mom's in the hospital. Don't know when she's coming home. Will be a week tomorrow. My dad and sister get to visit everyday. I feel left out and that they'd all be okay without me. Feel everyone would be okay without me actually but maybe my cat. The hospital is an hour away, and I can't get there myself. I only drive locally. They don't ask me to go with them because I have a son in school. So instead I hear nothing at all all day long, wait on a call later... Thought she was coming home yesterday and waited to hear something til I finally called going on 7:00. It's a possibility she may today but have no idea, and yeah, have heard nothing at all. Just feel so tired of life right now. Had a fire in December and lost everything, including my 10 dear cats. Have suffered with anxiety and depression since. Lost our goat of 11 years last week, the day my mom went into surgery and I didn't get to go. Would like something good to happen for once. Would like some good news or something. Would like to smile and feel joy again.