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Originally Posted by junestarlit
I wish he understood my frustration and i wish we connected better sexually because I know he can be a very sexual person i just felt he's always held back witih me since i've been with him. I don't want to do this forever like this, somethings gotta change and seems the talking doesn't help.
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K...this seems like a huge red flag that got planted like an afterthought in the garden of your discontent. If he's 'always' been like this since the beginning of your relationship, you should have realized, as a fully grown woman, that you can't just change him, because it's not working for you now. Please don't think I'm being harsh, as I don't mean for that, but this situation was 2 years in the making, not just a few upsetting months.
Now, you're realizing that what you signed up for, you actually got, and without a support system (i.e. family friends) it's become hugely difficult for you to deal with. This is understandable. Being magnanimous can be a very lonely offering if it's accepted and the giver is then marginalized.
Same suggestions apply with any relationship where at least one partner is unhappy to the point of possibly leaving (and pointing out your lack of funds, and isolation, tells me you have at least floated the thought in your head a few times) .... see if he's willing to go to marriage counselling (hopefully there are state paid for/fed paid for help in your area). Have that sit down, heart to heart.
It will be in your voice, the irritation, and disappointment, but try to cool that. If he feels you're attacking him, the conversation is over, even if he is the type to be non-confrontational. Coming from a position of 'I understand you may be feeling unhappy too' works wonders. Empathy, before explanation of conversation reason usually does. Then, as I've said before, LISTEN to him. Don't worry about how you'll answer or what to say next. Just LISTEN. If you do comment after what he's said, comment ON WHAT HE'S SAID, not on something it reminded you of. If you're not sure how to do that...repeat what he's said back to him, in your words so at least he KNOWS you heard him.
Don't rush it. Take your time (set up a time where this is possible). You sound very much in love with him, so I have hope for you.
Take care