((((Abby))))

It is not ridiculous that you feel overwhelmed or that you self-harmed. You felt like there was too much going on for you, and you used the coping mechanism that you knew would work to try and reduce those feelings. Is it the best coping mechanism to use? Probably not, but you did what you had to do given the circumstances.

What would make things less overwhelming for you? Are there too many people around? Are there expectations of you? What is it? Whatever it is, try and think of a way that you can give yourself the gift of whatever it takes (e.g., going to a quiet place, going for a walk) in order to make things feel less intense. In the mean time, it might not be a bad idea for you to go meet up with a friend (unless of course that is the reason for your feeling overwhelmed). If that's the case, then it's perfectly fine to say no, and go do something (healthy) that would make you feel better instead.

You can do this.