I did Mouse. When she said at our first meeting that she meets a person a few times to see how it goes, she said it with a matter-of-factness and kindness. Still, I was worried... like I had to impress her or be a certain way or something.
My online friend assured me it was for me as well as for her and that there was no pressure to be a certan way, just to go and be myself. Having just left a T who was not a good fit it did make sense to me; I didn't want to waste months again spending time trying to make the relationship something it wasn't ever going to be so I knew this was really a good idea.
Still I worried and when I called her after our 2nd meeting I knew she was what I'd been looking for and I had to ask what she thought so far. I needed know what direction it was taking. She told me then she thought we could work well together... but until she said that about the standing appointment... I didn't really feel it. Now I feel like I'm "hers" and she's "mine" if you know what I mean.. at least for that hour every week.
I like talking to her as opposed to the guided imagery/hypnotherapy of the former T. This is personal and accepting and I just love being there with her.
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