well i feel better than i did earlier. i told T that and he said good. i want to go to bed early. so i took my meds. im off tomorrow. but back to work on Friday. im planning on going to hearing voices group tomorrow. but i have to ask T if its going on or not. he helps facilitate that group. i was supposed to be a facilitator but im too scared to do it. i even went to the training with T in a different state. it was a bad experience because my voices came back near the end of the week of training and i had to fly on a plane with the voices telling me that people were going to attack me. T sat next to me on the flight and tried to distract me by showing me pictures in the magazines. he rubbed my arm and that made me feel a littler better.

anyway. idk why i just typed all that. i hope the group is going on tomorrow so i can go.