I wrote about this once somewhere here I will post it I found the post saved in a windows notepad file.When the darkness comes over me I feel nothing like a empty shell am I even human anymore?I wonder am I a monster am I even here?silence becomes me laying still I cant move anymore the shadows dancing on the ceiling all around me they whisper they taunt me but I lay frozen still lifeless but still here trapped in the void its never ending I hear them calling my name but I cannot answer I hear them coming my way but I cannot look all I can do is stare into space even the most extreme pleasure would I be able to enjoy not even if the world were on fire would it phase me because I have lost my touch with my human side and the monster has taken over once again.