I don't know of any way to help you because I am feeling the same as you right now. I wish I could save all my bad days for when I'm old and alone (or working lol) I had a terrible day even though nothing bad actually happened. All the pain I'm feeling is being masked as well as I can. Absolutely breaks my heart to feel so empty when my kids are so beautiful and sweet and loving. I feel like I am just going through the motions. Even though I know I love my boys, I only feel sadness because I feel so cold. I know I will regret these days that could have been great but weren't because of my 'mood'.

Anyway, I just wanted to thank you because your post made me feel a little less alone.