I am leaving this house. My husband has been trying to force Bean and I out for weeks now. Even calling the police to try and make them force us to leave. The police gave me a card with his number written on it for domestic violence. I finally give up. We leave in the next few days.

Bean does not deserve this. She cannot be raised to think all a woman deserves is to be treated this way.

I will not allow a man to teach her that this is how to be treated.

She is begging to leave this house and I dont blame her. It is a neverending hell with the hurtful filth that comes out of his mouth.

I am so sad and scared to go across the country to a place I dont know. But it is the only way to get away from him. Its my fault. I put Bean and I in this situation and I am so sorry for that.

We will finally have peace in our life instead of chaos. There was never peace and happiness here. Only his drama and crisis all day long every day.

He is an abuser who will never admit or accept that fact. It will always be someone elses fault and in this case, mine.

I am a kind, loving, well educated woman who fell for sweet talk and then it turned to poison.

Sorry about putting this here on roll call but you are all my friends and I need you all so much right now. I cant stop crying.

I have so much guilt for allowing this behavior and for allowing Bean to see it. We should have left years ago with the first warning signs.

Thank you for listening. Oxox

punky