Hi Muse, that sounds a lot like a panic attack to me. When I was a teenager, I would sometimes get so upset and cry so hard I'd get sick to my stomach and couldn't stop shaking. I know that feeling you described -- being emotionally exhausted and numb and feeling really detached from yourself when it's over.
When it happened to me, I didn't know it was a panic attack. I just thought I was "upset," but in hindsight I realize it was how my anxiety was manifesting itself. I was holding my emotions in so much and then sometimes everything would just build up and I'd have one of those sobbing, shaking, attacks. Fortunately, I outgrew it by the time I was about 17 and didn't get panic attacks again until I was 31 (different symptoms).
I wish I had learned some ways to cope with my anxiety and calm myself down when I was younger, though. You should talk to your parents about this or a school councillor or a doctor. Cognitive Behaviour Therapy could probably help you a whole lot. You're very wise to be asking about this. It can get much better and there's lot of help available. Sometimes, just talking about it -- like you just did -- can be extremely helpful.
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