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Originally Posted by Hbomb0903
Does anyone look at stuff they did while feeling more stable and just think, wow? I did that???
I have a bunch of folders of bookmarks cuz only about a short month ago, I was on fire to start a business of my own and researching all kinds of things. Now I could barely even be bothered to glance at them???
So heartbreaking. I'm waiting for the break and for the 'me' underneath all this apathy to reemerge. So frustrating. Just wondered if any of you could relate.
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I feel like that quite a bit. I think about what I was able to do when I was much more stable than I am now and makes me so sad.
I look at it and know that, that's really me. Then I look in the mirror and see this person with bags under her eyes, the lack of sparkle and the look of absolute pain on her face, not to mention the extra pounds because of meds.
I saw that stable person for about 6 months last year. Felt great, loving life, planning to return to work and everyone was proud of how far I had come.
And now it's back and I'm devastated...