I'm sure this topic comes up a lot here, but I can't concentrate to go through all the threads.

I recently recovered memories of serious child abuse inflicted mainly, but not exclusively, by my mother and shared everything with my T this week. I now feel the rage trying to get out, but I'm terrified to let it loose. My open wounds are still raw. I won't be seeing my T again until late June and I'm feeling stranded.

The problem with me is if I get angry I have a tendency to get very suicidal. If I let the anger out even a little, I get suicidal thoughts. It scares me because I've attempted suicide before. I wish I was seeing my T more often to discuss this but I'm on my own.

Does anyone have any advice on letting the anger out safely.