Been thinking a lot lately an think of completely purging myself from my past to T. Of course this completely opens me up and makes me more vulnerable Than I ever have been by choice. Just because I think I want I doesn't mean I will.

Yet I can already feel the anxiety from it. My next T will be the last fort 3weeks due to me getting away. When I come back I have my first Pdoc appt then 2days later T. So there would b 3weeks I increased anxiety and worry about the repercussions for my confessions. I do not lie to T in essence of saying things but have learned that by omitting things I am in Essence lying.

I feel the purge would be beneficial in the long run but short term might push me a bit far An unknown how I'll handle it.

Any insight on topic would be appreciated.