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Old May 29, 2014, 11:42 AM
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Been thinking a lot lately an think of completely purging myself from my past to T. Of course this completely opens me up and makes me more vulnerable Than I ever have been by choice. Just because I think I want I doesn't mean I will.

Yet I can already feel the anxiety from it. My next T will be the last fort 3weeks due to me getting away. When I come back I have my first Pdoc appt then 2days later T. So there would b 3weeks I increased anxiety and worry about the repercussions for my confessions. I do not lie to T in essence of saying things but have learned that by omitting things I am in Essence lying.

I feel the purge would be beneficial in the long run but short term might push me a bit far An unknown how I'll handle it.

Any insight on topic would be appreciated.
Can you test the waters and make it easier on yourself by selecting one specific item from your past to discuss? I agree with you that it's a valid concern about the backlash if you do this before a three week break, meaning your therapist won't be there to process the serious disclosure with you and you may worry about their reaction.