Hey, WantingPeace! I, too, know what you mean by not feeling positive emotions. And I know what it is like to sort of put on a clown mask, acting happy and being funny, when I am crying inside. What has helped me the most is being in therapy. It's now wonderful to be able to feel the whole range of emotions!

Alas, Eden isn't a good place to find therapists either, but I am thinking there might be one or more in Reidsville. Of course, that might be where you have gone. The one I go to where I live does take medicare. I am sorry your last therapist violated your trust.

Maybe in Martinsville? It's a bit of a drive, but might be worth it. I have driven as far as an hour away to get a good therapist in the past.