im still scared to drive. so i been having my dad drive me around but he has to go back to work tomorrow so this sucks. im pissed cuz i cant lose weight. im trying so hard. i cant get out of the 130s. my dad says my goal weight of 105 was ok if i was still a teeneger. but my stomach protrudes in my shirts and my thighs are huge.

my paranoia is back full swing. i see airplanes everywhere divebombing my house.