Sometimes, it hits me how much I need my T, and it terrifies me. Right now, I am thinking about how important she is to me, and I'm sort of freaking out because I didn't ever want her to be that important. I don't want to need her. But I do, and I am terrified of that.

(On the flip side of this, I feel sort of comforted by the fact that she is so consistent and available. I know she's not going anywhere any time soon. It doesn't stop me from being so afraid, but it helps a little.)

Anyone else feel that fear at random times?