Thanks! I followed the advice and wrote down the things I need to say. Maybe I will ask t if she can read it herself because I always change/skip things while reading. I fear tomorrow so much because when she first found out she was speechless and then I wanted to process other things first. I fear she will reject me if I try to talk about that. I don't even want to, but I'm suddenly not well and need someone to know what is happening and tell me that I'm ok.
Thank you so so much.