I don't even know where to begin. Recently I relocated 900 miles from home. The only person that I know here is my boyfriend - (long story, new relationship after 10 year friendship, I moved here after a severely negative life-changing event) - he works 12-16 hours a day, 6 days a week, so I'm alone most of the time. I've been here since April 20th. My kids are going to be here on 6/21, they stayed behind for school and church camp.

I NEED to get out and get a job, like NEED to. We're close to the time when we'll be choosing between Ramen and the electric bill and we're less than a month out from adding two more people to the mix. There are jobs available here in my field that I am more than qualified for, but my social anxieties are getting in the way... we don't have a car and most days the idea of walking or riding the bus alone is panic attack inducing, I can't even make phone calls some days because the idea of talking to someone I don't know... indescribable. I am trying, and some days I can make it out the door, but... yeah.

For my part, I'm gradually getting appointments made and I've put in for a few jobs that I could work from home... so I am doing things... I'm just doing it from my living room and so far I've accomplished very little. He's starting to resent that I'm not working yet BECAUSE of my anxiety, not lack of jobs available to me and it is affecting our relationship.

Any suggestions on how talk to him in a way that he will understand? Anyone had this severe kind of anxiety - how did it affect your relationship? How did you get through it? Did you?