I realized today that I no longer miss old T. Like, at all. Ever. Possibly because I have other more important things/people in my life right now. But I rarely even think of her these days. And I only thought of her today because I was feeling super anxious and calmed myself down by locating my yoga mat, lying down, closing my eyes, and slowly counting backwards from 100 while focussing on my breathing. I did that twice and then when I got up, I felt better. And then I went to the gym in my building and worked out on the stationary bike for about an hour, which also helped me calm way down. Both of those things are ideas that old T gave me to help me calm down when I'm anxious, and they helped.

So, I am grateful to her...but no longer fixated on her! And I know I did the right thing by leaving her anyway. It was time. I learned some useful things from her though, and I am grateful to her for that.